My posts are usually filled with raw emotions. An open-up into my heart and mind. Two of the scariest places we, as humans, find ourselves stuck in from time-to-time. I write because its therapeutic for me. It's a way for me to not only get out of my head, but to see my emotions, my problems, and what's going on on the inside, right before my own eyes, in pure writing. It gives me the chance to look at what's bothering me, evaluate myself, dive a little deeper, research a little more, and find out how to change my life for the better.
Over these few months of blogging, I have had many responses both online and in person ranging from "thank you" and "keep it up" to "how could you write about that?" and being totally shot down.
As with anything we do in life, we have to deal with consequences or lessons. How we react from these lessons is key to evolving and growing on a more spiritual and energetic level. This energetic level references our very own personal frequencies. Our frequencies are how we interact with other human beings (and all of creation, for that matter). As can be seen in studies of cymatics, higher and lower frequencies have the power to make matter beautiful or to make matter disturbed.
With the darkness that's currently going on around the world through recent events, know that we are that much closer to spiraling out of the darkness and into this New Age of Light. More eyes are opening up to the reality of their own lives and realizing they, like Dorothy in Oz, have always had the power to change it for the better.
The most influential words given to me by an old friend during one of my downward spirals in life,
"There is nothing that is holding you here."
You CAN change for the better. You CAN leave that job that's bringing you down, you CAN leave those negative worries of the past behind. You CAN change. and you can "BE THE CHANGE."
:D Honestly... staying positive is hard work, but its all I have.
I'm on the up swing after a very low down swing. There's a lot that I choose not to talk about or post on social media because there's already so much bad news. Instead, I force myself to be overloaded with positive thoughts and its pretty amazing how much they do actually help. True story: Awhile back I actually sent facebook itself an e-mail asking if there was a way they could set up their feed so you can choose what type of content shows up (good uplifting news, bad worldly news, or both). After the fact I realized how kind of silly that was. There are way too many people involved in my social media circle, even with how advanced technology is today, that they aren't going to rule through every single post deciding whats considered “good” and “bad” in this online world.
Its about choice. Everything goes in full circle, think about the last time you felt this way and what you did to get out of it. This has been a rough journey for many of us, especially those of us that really know the true essence of "soul”.
There's a few things we need to realize: we are not perfect. We as one single person alone cannot change the world. However, if we work together with the masses, choosing to fill ourselves with whats good and light, sooner or later you will see more and more of humanity standing strong in their own beliefs of peace and love and unity. This awakening that we've read about, that's been prophesied about, this is real and it is so accurately happening right now, its crazy and frightening and awesome all at the same time.
I spend a lot of time reading about this type of stuff. What many of the astrologists, psychics and even “regular” people that talk about this awakening agree on is that it truly does effect our moods and our place in life. That sense of feeling “lost” or needing to find yourself is absolutely normal. We all go through it time and again. It's how we evolve as humans. Not in the ape-to-man sense of evolution, but more of an evolution on a metaphysical and spiritual level.
What do you know about opening the third eye? Our pineal gland is the control center for opening our eyes to the good life. I would totally encourage you to read up on the chakras and energy healing. With this evolution, our bodies and minds don't really know how to handle this. You obviously know the movie The Matrix, yes? It's ridiculous how similar that movie is to our own lives. No, we aren't living in a total alternate virtual reality, but it does take over a greater portion of our lives. In the same way, our generation grew up smack dab in the middle of this obscene synthetic reality.
Man-made inventions are ruling our lives to the point that many people forget that we lived good and well way before these inventions of man. (I wrote this piece a little over a year ago and it totally freaks me out how much it foretold events that happened for me this year. You can find it here.)
I know I'm getting off track but it all relates, I swear.
I study herbs and natural healing. Last month I was given the opportunity to work with my aunt at two big Holistic Healing events. It was there that I met Mary Blue, founder of Farmacy Herbs in Providence, RI. She is hands down one of my biggest inspirations. (She wrote a book that my aunt bought for me and signed it “May the herbs be with you!” and that made her a goddess in my book). Anyway, during one of her talks she spoke on Planetary Healing. This was such a mind-blowing topic for me. The gist of it was that “if we truly want to heal the planet, we need to wake up and realize that we are currently living in a toxic world.”
Her words gave me chills AND brought immediate tears to my eyes. It's so true. She spoke of the toxins that go into our body. Whether it be food or medicine, they pass through our systems and where do they go from there? From our digestive track to our toilets and sinks back into our earth and waters. The more toxins we put inside our body, the more toxins we put into the earth. If we want to change the world on a physical level, then we need to change ourselves. Change our lifestyle.
In the same way, with how much the media is ruling our lives through television, smartphones, social media, newspapers, etc..., again we need to realize we are living in a toxic world. In this sense, toxicity is based on good news versus bad news. We are at a point where it feels like there is just SO much bad news that its unbearable. Whether intentional or not, the media knows how to evoke fear into people. Its up to our individual selves how we handle this fear.
We can let fear, worry and doubt rule us; making us feel insignificant, lost, angry and alone OR we can learn from our fears.
“Let love guide you, but also take fear with you.”
This is where learning from your shadow-self comes in. Our “shadow” in regards to spiritual energy, is the darker forces that sometimes try to overtake our souls. Some religions will refer to these dark forces as evil or as demons trying to bring you down. I was raised in a very spiritual family. When I was in my late teens, my church offered a class called Spiritual Authority. At the time I had no idea how the information taught in this class would be necessary to my life as a young adult, but the more I grow and evolve, the more thankful I am that I took that class. It's part of the reason I have been so open to spiritual and energetic attunements. It's also part of the reason why I have, on the other hand, been so open to what some call “psychic attacks” and others, a “mental illness.” Anxiety is one of the many forms these dark forces can take.
I spent way too much time beating myself up trying to find my place in life. A few years back, a life-changing book fell into my hands: The Shadows Gift: Finding Out Who You Really Are by Robin Robertson. (Read the summary here) This book opened my eyes to a whole new way of looking at my life. Another life-changing book on my journey is The Book of Secrets: Unlocking the Hidden Dimensions of Your Life by Deepak Chopra.
While I was raised in the Christian church, I've also spent many years learning of other religions. I love that Buddhism teaches you to embrace and learn from your shadow. I've always been a sucker for mystic and magic, but there really is something so beautiful about learning from your dark past. One of my many motto's is “Always seek beauty in darkness.” While the world right now may seem dark and cold, we can actively make the choice to seek beauty. To seek goodness. To seek light and to encourage others to do the same. It's about changing our perspective from wanting to overcome “darkness” to wanting to learn from it. We need to find balance.
The shadow in you right now, might be manifesting itself in ways that make you feel lost but I promise you, it's all part of the journey. These dark feelings are our inner-self trying to get our attention, screaming at us that something in our waking life needs to change if we intend on following and discovering our true life's purpose on our journey
I want to share with you some of the sources for good news that I actively follow to keep my good-vibe game strong:
Some random stuff that has also helped me accept where I am on my journey to help ease the feelings of being “lost”:
Astrology in regards to how being a Gemini effects my mood, personality, decisions I make and why. (Not those silly social media quizzes). As well as how the moon and planets influence whats going on in the world. Numerology was interesting to learn as well as finding out my Myer's Briggs Personality Type .
Another big help was finding out my Ayurvedic Dosha. Learning your dosha helps bring awareness to when something in your body is off balance. This method dates back to ancient Chinese medicine. Our doshas are representative of any combination of the five elements; ether, air, earth, fire, and water.
Depending on your dosha, when our body is off-balance it takes the form of our various shadow-attributes. For example, my dosha, Vata, represents air. The characteristics described in books are so ridiculously accurate to me. This has helped me learn WHY some emotions or symptoms happen in my mind and body and help me determine what I need to do to fix them. It could be as simple as doing a breathing exercise or taking a walk in nature but could also signify that something bigger needs attention, like my diet & lifestyle.
For anxiety and chattering minds that are hard to turn off, I recommend yoga poses for grounding and re-aligning your root chakra. Here's a great video with some simple grounding techniques to calm the over-active mind:
Keep a notebook and pen by your side while you meditate. As you're breathing, if you have thoughts that won't go away, write them down. When you write them down you're releasing your mind from their obsessive grasp. Know that when you write them down you are free to do with them as you will. If that same thought pops back into your head, take authority over it. Stop it in its tracks. Change your minds subject if that makes any sense. You can do this by listening to your breath. Every yoga teacher I have ever studied with whether online, in person, or through a dvd will tell you this same thing.
By listening to your breath as it flows in and out of your body, you are bringing yourself and your awareness to the absolute PRESENT moment. Listening to your breath gives no room for voices or annoying negative thoughts.
Finally, what do you know about sound frequencies and how they influence our well-being? As we work on awakening our third-eye and evolving our spiritual selves, we are actually changing are DNA. Sound frequencies also have the ability to enhance or inhibit the growth of our new DNA. Sound frequencies can tear us apart and bring us down OR they can influence us on a more positive level. This is a really great documentary on how we can change our own frequency to change our reality:
All the good vibes and warm wishes to you!
While he may be gone, his spirit surely lives on. <3